I wonder...
The feeling that I've had for the past year and 23 days...
Will it ever leave?
If it does, then I will die...
The feeling I have been having is a magical 4-letter word called: LOVE.
I had never experienced it before in my life...
Until I met her...
And now, look at me.
I live for her, breathe for her, her wish is my command, WHATEVER she wants.
She brought out talents that I did not know I had.
The first thought I had was: 'I've found it. My eternity of love...'
My heart needed a key to be opened, but there was just something special about her. I fell in love with her immediately.
Now all I had to do was find the key to her heart, and I was willing to wait forever if I had to. She was BEYOND worth the wait.
Now here was a thought that never occured to me: What if someone already...
No. Don't even want to begin to think towards that direction.
Thinking back, I couldn't help but notice everything that's happened in the past. There must have been something wrong with me. No one's ever liked me. So I'm not some tall, slim, handsome, Japanegro guy like I should be. So WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?! Everytime I look in the mirror, I say to my reflection: 'She doesn't love you.'. Then the mirror cracks straight through my heart. It must be true. She doesn't love me. This is one of those situations where you make someone your everything, then when they're gone, you're left with nothing... Well, the only other person in this world I actually love (Jacqueline Nguyen) says move on. But it's impossible. I can't. No one else is like her. No one else is perfect like her. Well...So much for an Eternity Of Love....

I live in two very different worlds.

One of them is called Earth. It's the world I live in when I'm awake. Only two things on that miserable little planet interests me.

I only see the other one when I'm asleep.
The other is called "Murasaki No Sora [Sky Of Purple]" (Sora for short).
Everything there is perfect.
I actually exist, there is never trouble, it's always peaceful, no one is poor, nothing is paid for, no racism, no murder, no government, anything, you name it, it's here.

So what does Sora look like?
-The grass is blue-green
-The oceans are light blue-green
-The sky is purple.
[Dark purple at night]
-In addition to the sun and moon, Earth is also visible in the sky.
-It rains every other week.

WTF?!
I started daydreaming while playing Grand Theft Auto, IN THE MIDDLE OF A HIGH SPEED POLICE CHASE!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ran into a tree xD
And apparently the cops ran up to me and beat me out of the car.
So after I snap out of my daydream, I'm like WTF!!!!!
My little brother tells me everything that happened.

愛（あい）
そこわだあい


Love
There is no love.
Well maybe there is,
but not in my life.
In my life, love is precious.
Love is everything.
And right now, there is only one person
Who means the world to me.

Umm...this is really awkward because I wrote this while playing Grand Theft Auto San Andreas xD

This is why I relate to Naruto so well, because everyone treated him like he was a waste of space. This is how I used to be treated, and in a way, still is treated that way. But I have friends, close friends. I don't know what I mean to them, but they are the closest things to me. They always ask: 'Why are you so protective of me?'
The answer: My friends are the only bonds I have had. All those fake friends didn't care about me, but these new ones, I actually exist to them. So why am I so protective? Because I'm the type of person who'd fight both life and death to exist in people's eyes. Besides, I want to be recognized by a certain someone.(And if that someone is reading this, and still hasn't figured out that I'm talking about her, then we are going to have a LONG talk)